About Me, "The Real Me"07:17 Nov 15 2015
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I'm here, to write this, about me. To write about myself, can get hard for me, because i have alot to me, that can be more than a little personal. I'm a struggling writer, and i've been writing for years, ever since high school. I'm into fantasy, science fiction, gothic suspense. I would love to write a vampire novel, similar to "Dracula" by "Bram Stoker" "Interview with The Vampire" by "Anne Rice" and the classic daytime gothic romance, "Dark Shadows" that brought vampire "Barnabas Collins" to the small screen, in the mid sixties, to the early seventies. I lived, and breathed the show, i'm still a major fan of the show, and i know just about everything about the show, it's history, the storyline, the actors that portrayed the characters, for five years the show ran, on tv. I'm into vampire movies, and books, i like the whole idea, of being immortal, as a vampire, never aging, but having that problem, of having to live, on human blood, would be a drawback to that existence. So, i can write about vampires. I'm a physically challenged person, which means i have a disability. I have a form of Cerebral Palsy, but i don't let it stop me. One thing about me, is that i'm bisexual, i've always known, that i was different, from the earliest times, that was in first grade, when i found being affectionate with same sex friends, felt so normal, and natural to me. I never saw anything wrong with it, but growing up in the sixties, when the ultra conservative, family values, and morals ruled the world, like a nasty plague, that also condoned racism, and bigotry, like it was law, when it wasn't, but people got away with it, regardless how a good majority of the younger generation, wanted to change the world, for the better, by protesting things, like the war in Vietman, and the war going on over here, with the anti war movement, that was going on all over this country, during the psychedelic era, of the youth counterculture movement, that seemed to want to rule the world, which they did, by putting the older generation in thier places, with the phrases, "Never trust anyone over 30." There was another phrase, "Make love, not war." I knew those phrases so very well, when i was getting into those teen years, which were the years, of the sexual revolution, when i had my first real same sex experiences. I'd heid hands with a boy, hugged a boy, and before i was even 10 years old, i had a first kiss, with a boy i liked, alot. I'd even had my arm around a boy, more than once, when i was a boy. Girls on the other hand, my first time kissing a girl happened when i was at the tender age of 7, or 8, she was about 7, so we were close to the same age. She was my very first, childhood sweetheart. Unfortunately, we weren't together for very long, because she had to move away, and i was so heartbroken when that happened. We never saw each other again. There was another girl, that was a sweetheart of mine, when i was about 9, almost 10. She was very special to me, and i always made her smile, when i tried to kiss her. She was about 9, and it's sad to say this, but she had a tragic accident, and died a few days later. That was my first exposure to death. Her death hit me hard, because the accident should never have happened to her, because she was too young to leave this world, the way she did. I still think of her, even now. I'm a social misfit, and outcast, because i'm not all that normal, i never have been, i've always been a little eccentric, and out there, so as "The Who" once said, "Can ya see the real me can ya, can ya?!
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Kataryia
07:04 Sep 19 2017
Normal is overrated ..
phycoassassin
00:28 Sep 21 2017
Thank you that's what i've always believed.